Its the end of a week again... so many homework... end of year is coming very soon... Anyway,I feel very tired both physically and mentally.... Sometimes, i wish that i will fall into a sleep and never wake up again... Cause its like...erm..i dunno how to say it.... i feel that there is a very heavy load in my chest.. it makes me feel very stressed like that... secondary school life is really tough... its not like primary school, where homework are not so many....and also the projects are not that difficult to do... Project work presentation is coming soon.... I have a very strong feeling that i will totally screwed up the presentation... cause i feel very nervous whenever i stand in front of a lot of people and present....then when i feel nervous, my heart will beat very fast and my legs sometimes will start to shake,and the words will get stuck in my throat....i have had this problem since young...and i dunno how to cure it... If i screwed up the presentation for myself only then that's ok, because it will only affect me and pull down my marks.. but it does not only affect me, it affects the whole group!!! Therefore, the whole group will get very low marks for project work... and this is the problem i am really worried about... as everyone really puts in effort to present as best as they could but just bacause of me, their efforts go to waste... I hereby sincerely apologise to my group members and my group leader... i am really sorry.... Now i seriously dunno what to do and i am in a total lost now.... I am such a failure...
Its the end of a week again... so many homework... end of year is coming very soon... Anyway,I feel very tired both physically and mentally.... Sometimes, i wish that i will fall into a sleep and never wake up again... Cause its like...erm..i dunno how to say it.... i feel that there is a very heavy load in my chest.. it makes me feel very stressed like that... secondary school life is really tough... its not like primary school, where homework are not so many....and also the projects are not that difficult to do... Project work presentation is coming soon.... I have a very strong feeling that i will totally screwed up the presentation... cause i feel very nervous whenever i stand in front of a lot of people and present....then when i feel nervous, my heart will beat very fast and my legs sometimes will start to shake,and the words will get stuck in my throat....i have had this problem since young...and i dunno how to cure it... If i screwed up the presentation for myself only then that's ok, because it will only affect me and pull down my marks.. but it does not only affect me, it affects the whole group!!! Therefore, the whole group will get very low marks for project work... and this is the problem i am really worried about... as everyone really puts in effort to present as best as they could but just bacause of me, their efforts go to waste... I hereby sincerely apologise to my group members and my group leader... i am really sorry.... Now i seriously dunno what to do and i am in a total lost now.... I am such a failure...
